Stop, I want to get off!

Having children was all I ever wanted. I always remember those conversations at school, then college, then university, where people asked about your future ambitions.  It always felt like they were expecting an academic or career based answer rather than my response – to have a family.  I often felt that this was not a good enough answer, that I should have been striving for more, but I always stuck to my guns knowing that this was everything to me and no career could ever top it.

I was right and having my three girls in a loving partnership with the Stinker has been everything, and more than, I ever dreamt it would be. If course that does not mean it has all been easy or plain sailing (as I have written about in Feeling Fragile and Back to Basics).

I have to admit there are days when I feel like screaming “Stop, I want to get off!” and wonder what life would be like if we’d chosen less or no children… but I always come back to the simple fact that they complete me.

Since homeschooling I’ve obviously been spending even more time with all three girls.  This was part of the pull of doing it but I’m sure you can imagine how full-on it can be at times! Some days the Stinker returns home from work and I just give him the look and disappear upstairs for some time out! My Saturday morning ‘me time’ is always much needed, even if it is often spent holed-up in our bedroom, like a student, with my music playing and a book with more words than pictures on each page!


Last weekend the Stinker and I went for a much needed break together to Brighton. We dropped Poppet, Pickle and Piccalilli at nanny and daioo’s house and off we went. Getting stuck on the M25 didn’t even matter because, as I kept reminding the Stinker, of the lack of whinging coming from the back of the car. In fact it was quite a treat to be able to sit ‘shotgun’ for once!

The highlights of our weekend away included:

  • Staying up until 3am knowing no small people would crawl into our bed and punch/kick us in the head in three hours.
  • Eating out not just once but for every meal at the times we were hungry.
  • Playing the 2p games at the amusements ourselves, not having to share the money out fairly.
  • Wandering around with nowhere to go and nobody asking where, when, why?
  • Actually being able to enjoy the extra hour in bed when the clocks went back.

All this said, I did miss my girls and was excited about seeing them when we returned to collect them.

I feel completely refreshed and reconnected with the Stinker, ready to get going again (but I am hoping for another break again soon and I’m sure I’ll need it!)


13 thoughts on “Stop, I want to get off!

  1. Love this! I’m a homeschooling mama as well and my husband and I just went on our first trip alone together ever. It was magic simply being able to read when I wanted to (I finished 2 books in 4 days) and eat whatever, whenever. Oh, to have some peace and quiet! I felt so refreshed. When we started school up again, everyone was in a much more positive mood than they had been when we left.

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  2. This post really engaged me… Thank you for sharing it. Honestly, I feel the same. I haven’t had kids yet, but I’ve always felt like THAT’s what i’m hoping to do in my future. In fact, I started blogging just to try and earn an income for when I do have kids – I want to pay off my loans faster so that I don’t have to worry about them so much when I do. Hopefully we’ll be trying for them sometime next year, we’ll see. Anyway, thank you for sharing! 🙂

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  3. First off…LOVE the blog.
    And I totally agree with you that the “me time” is needed.
    My partner is a truck driver here in Norway, so he isn’t that much at home… It’s mostly me and the kids (3 & 1) all week and then I going on long walks ALONE eith the dogs every Saturday 😉

    Looking forward to following you from now on 🙂

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      1. I’m lucky to have a great mother that looks after the kids every now and then during week days…so that I can take my horse out for a ride or just go over to the neighbors place and do some gardening for the old man 😉 ❤

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  4. We all deserve a much need break. We’d go insane if we don’t. I always make sure I have a time for myself but that doesn’t mean mommy duties is taking back seat. 🙂

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